Wednesday, 28 October 2009


For 2 years I have ignored the fashion of wearing leggings! i wore them when i was a little girl and they were NOT flattering!! However, since they have come back into fashion, how to wear them has changed! I thought now with the oversized jumpers, cardies and tops, you can hide the dreaded camel toe and big bum accidents that appear with leggings! So after buying an oversized cardie from H&M i bought some legging from Tesco for £5! They are so comfortable, thicker than tights but roomy and stretchable as tights! They don't show cellulite or make your legs look fat either! I love them!

Tesco and Asda do really nice leggings for £5

Also Marks and spencers do some adorable leggings with buttons by the ankles for £15! I will definitely be getting some when I can afford some!!

So don't be scared... get some leggings!!

Saturday, 3 October 2009

First iPod touch blog!

Thought I'd try this out!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Saturday, 19 September 2009

I have never watched this film and do not know the storyline so these are simply thoughts and ideas simply from looking at the poster…

The character Harry Potter is positioned in the middle as he is the ‘the protagonist’, the supporting characters are juxtaposed either side of him giving the impression that they are standing beside him, supporting him and even protecting him.

The character Harry Potter stance gives the impression of confidence; his body language protrudes confidence and is ready for a fight.

Unlike the other characters, Harry Potter is dressed down, Wearing a t-shirt, hoody, gloves and jeans. Most of his clothes are dark as if to make him look mysterious, like a shadow, his t-shirt is a dark blood red which could denote the shedding of blood through out the film.

Most of the other characters are dressed in school clothes, so with Harry potter being dressed in other clothes that his parts in the film are going to take place outside of the school.

The way Harry Potter is dressed can also be associated with the tag line at the top of the poster that says ‘THE REBELLION BEGINS’ This could mean that Harry Potter is rebelling.

Hermione who is standing left of Harry potter, is also not in school uniform, however she is dressed smartly in a colourful striped jumper. This could mean that she is also associated with the ‘Rebellion’ tag but she is smarter and more sophisticated about it.

Harry potter is holding on to his wand in his right hand, the wand is pointing down. This looks like he is showing he is prepared for a ‘fight’ but not aggressive.

Harry Potter and the first 4 characters either side of him are all looking straight at the viewer of the poster. They are also tilting their heads downwards a little. This portrays the feeling that they are confidently looking down on you, that they are also concentrating, mean business and are ready for what will happen.

Behind Harry Potter and to the left is a blonde haired girl, she is looking upwards and behind what the other characters are looking at, this could mean that she is not on the same side as Harry, or she may betray him.

The Girl to the right of Harry is holding a wand upwards with her arms crossed, this means she is enclosed, hiding herself, and holding her wand upwards like that is almost like a show of ‘ I have a wand and I’m not afraid to use it” He face expression is emotionless, it looks like this character does not like to give to much away,

Behind Harry to the right of him is a girl with long black hair, she looks like she is peering over the other characters to see, as if she is not in the ‘team’ but she is holding her wand as if to say she is ready to stand up for Harry and his ‘team’ She is also looking at Harry, again showing that she is watching.

The back ground is dark and smoky, the dark usually signifies the unknown and is associated with evil and scary feelings. You can not see in the dark, which makes fear what you cannot see. Smoke /fog also portrays thoughts of fear as again you cannot see properly in that atmosphere which makes you fearful of what might happen, what’s there or what is not.

Overall the poster is dark, mysterious and gives off the essence of a change, seriousness and that conflict is going to occur.

Sunday, 23 August 2009

Sweetly blood (I take, I scream you up inside my cherries)

I created this using a midlibs song generator on this website

sweetly blood's sweetly blood

I walk my tapes and all the letter wants bed;
I swear my coverss and all is send again.
(I take I scream you up inside my cherries.)

The treess go runing out in Gigantic and Cunning ,
And reliable ten cry s in:
I love my captain and all the arm sings tongue.

I cryed that you wanted me into chair
And need me amazing , feeled me quite Handsome .
(I take I scream you up inside my cherries.)

faith wants from the love, teeth's cakes aim:
swim pen and finger's tablet:
I love my captain and all the arm sings tongue.

I reached you'd take the way you name,
But I hear pretty and I see your knife.
(I take I scream you up inside my cherries.)

I should have let goed a case instead;
At least when fourth hates they love back again.
I love my captain and all the arm sings tongue.

(I take I scream you up inside my cherries.)

- Helen & Sylvia Plath

Create Your Own Madlib on

Monday, 15 June 2009

The obituary of Helen Dolman

Helen Dolman, lazy unemployed nobody, died lastnight after complications of loosing her mind. She was 25 years old. Excitable and outgoing, Dolman never let life and problems get her down, but in the final weeks of her life the uphill struggle to sort out her life became too difficult to take.

Her depressed and unhappy persona, unlike the girl we all knew, seemed to get weaker by the day after the feelings of failing consumed her. Dolman, had spent her whole life trying to pursue her dreams and live her life to the fullest, but after many knock backs and declines, she began to realise that lady luck was not on her side.

Yet even in certain defeat, the courageous Dolman secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences, but rather, its a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan. Believing that all things happen for a reason was the downfall for Dolman, she could not understand why everything she touched fell apart and it was the mixture of feeling like a failure and her life falling apart that lead to her death.

The irony of man's condition is that the deepest need is to be free of the anxiety of death and annihilation; but it is life itself which awakens it, and so we must shrink from being fully alive.

Ernest Becker

Sunday, 7 June 2009

Horror story

Without a sound the translucent tear fell from Mary’s eye falling on to the paper work on the table.

“Take your time Mrs Wheeler” said the Doctor sitting opposite. Mary wiped away another tear, took a deep breathe and scribbled her signature on the bottom of the form.
“Thank you” the Doctor said sincerely, “your son will be ready to go home tomorrow”
Mary nodded looking down, more tears fell from her red bloodshot eyes. It had been 3 days since the results came back, Mary’s son Evan was incurable and had only a few days to live.

Apart from the illness, Evan was a normal eight year old. He loved comics, football and computer games. Mary was sure to make the last few days he lived as comfortable and happy as possible.

It was a cold and misty Sunday morning when Evan was transferred home. As he looked out the window of the car, he saw people of all ages walking the streets towards the old church that the city was built around. The graveyard seemed full of people which was strange. As the traffic slowed down the car past an old withered man in a brown overcoat, as the car got closer he turned and looked at Evan. The old mans eyes locked onto Evan and he stared at him with glowing red pupils but as Evan was so weak and tired it passed so quickly his attention soon became attached to the new computer games his mother had got him.

Mary carried Evan into the house, his eyes felt heavy and although he was excited to be home, the journey from the hospital had tired him out. Mary had set up a bed in the lounge so that Evan did not have to be stuck in his room all day and night. This way he could be the centre of attention, watch TV and play on his computer as well as not have the trouble of being moved around the house.

When Evan woke, he found that he had been sleeping in the cold and quiet lounge. He sat up and saw that outside the mist had not disappeared. The living room felt eerie, which Evan had never felt before, He tried to shout “ Mum” but it came out a whisper. He waited for a few minutes before calling again. Still no answer. Painfully Evan lifted himself out of the bed. His bare feet touched the cold wooden floor, which sent shivers throughout his frail body. With all his effort he pushed himself out of the bed, and he shuffled himself into the corridor. The corridor was long, hollow and cold, to his right a grandfather clock stood near the front door, which seemed to be allowing a cold breeze to pass all away along tugging at Evans blue pajamas.

He called for his mother again, he looked left to the kitchen, it looked dark and uninviting, there was no movement. His legs seemed to ache, tired and wobbly, He held onto the dado rail and waited a little longer for his mother to appear, but she did not. After one more call for his mother, Evan slowly turned around and headed back for his bed.

The living room had seemed to have got darker, the mist outside was really thick and menacing, Evan almost felt as if the mist was coming through the window. As he climbed into bed he saw a dark figure in the window out of the corner of his eye. He turned his head, but no one was there, as he turn his head back to look at his bed, the old man from outside the church was lying in his bed. Evan screamed in total fear and jumped backwards falling onto the cold wooden floor. The mist seemed to be seeping through the floor boards and up around Evans body. Shaking he tried to shuffle his whole body back wards away from the old man, who began to rise out of the bed. As he rose, he ripped away the brown coat, and began to change from a frail old man into a huge, muscled demon. On his head grew two huge horns, like the tusks of a elephant, his eyes were red and menacing, his ears were small and pointy, his nose was just two holes placed a few inches from his eyes. The scariest part of his face was his mouth, so huge it took up almost half his face, his teeth were large, pointy and sharp. From the neck down, the demon was pure muscle, he was huge and veiny.

Evan shook in absolute fear, the mist around him, seemed to hold him down and the demon towered above him. The demon starred into Evans eyes, his arm moved forward and started to reaching for him and as that happened Evan felt himself being elevated into the air by the cold mist. As he became eye level with the Demon its clawed hand grabbed onto Evans arm.

Suddenly Evan felt like he was being shaken.

“Wake up Evan, Wake up, Oh lord please no”

Evan opened his eyes to see his mother sitting by his bed shaking him shouting.

“Oh thank god, I thought….”

Evan sat up and rubbed his eyes. The living room still dark, He looked to the window, and saw that it was still misty outside. His heart began to slow down as he looked at his mother.

“Are you alright my dear” Mary Said stroking the hair away from Evan’s forehead.

Evan looked down at his shaking hands and then looked up at his mother “yeah” he said.

“Good, Let me get you some warm milk my love” said Mary as she stood up.

Evan looked at her as she got up and as she walked away he noticed the reflection of himself in the TV of him lying in the bed, as he starred thinking about what he had just dreamed about he noticed a dark figure standing behind his bed. Then another in the corner of the room, then under the bed and one behind the sofa.

He started to shake as he realised that they were here for one reason only. They had come to collect him.

Evan took a deep breath ad then mumbled under his breath “I don’t give a damn about living or dying anymore; all I care about is taking as many of those demons back to hell as I can”

Saturday, 6 June 2009

हे, लॉन्ग टाइम, नो, स्पेअक्य

Hello guys! Its been a long time! Sorry!

I've been so unbusy doing nothing I negected my blog!

So I have mainy been playing this


You make a 'brute' which is allowed 3 fights a day! You fight against other 'brutes' and get stronger and level up.


It's alot of fun!!

have a go and enjoy!!!



Friday, 10 April 2009

:-( lack of subscribers!

So im abit sad today, 4 months in and I have only have 2 subscribers!

I supose I should of asked the people who read these blogs to subscribe, but i didnt think i needed to.

So now I am poiltely asking that if you read my blog, can you please please click on FOLLOW on the right side bar ----->

cheers people!


Monday, 6 April 2009

Holidays and Insurance

So the other day me and my boyfriend booked a last minute holiday in Tunisia on the 19th of April for 7 nights!

I am very excited

However we were quoted nearly £40 by the post office and the Thomas cook representatives for both of us to be covered for7 nights! I thought that was a little steep so looked around on the internet!

We mangaed to get covered by Insure and go for £9!! We are covered up to 3 million hospital bills and all the other things that you need to be covered for, but for a quarter of the cost.

It just shows that you need to shop around!

Shopping around on internet is the best way to get cheaper deals and good prices! Its something you MUST do!

Wednesday, 25 March 2009

black hair!!! 25/03/09

SOOOOO i have decided to go over to the dark side!


I now have black hair and I am loving the new me! I also weighed my self this morning and have no reached my 1st mile stone! I have lost a whole 15 pounds since xmas! I am loosing its slowly but it is disappearing!


Saturday, 21 March 2009












Saturday, 14 March 2009

Sunday, 8 March 2009


The Unborn

Before watching I had a preconception that The unborn was going to be another teen horror movie with loads of unnecessary deaths, fake blood, bad effects and a weak story line.

However, in actual fact, this film scared the pants off me. I hid under the quilt in parts due to the scary and realistic special effects, the story line was believable, haunting and seemed to carry a essence of fear that gave goose-pimples.

It starts with a young girl trying to deconstruct the meaning behind a nightmare where she is being led to a foetus buried in the woods. The following events lead to Casey discovering that she was a twin and her brother died in her mothers womb.

She then goes on to discover that she is being stalked by an dybbuk who has been following her family for generations and her only chance to save her life is to exorcise the bad spirit before it possesses her.

What is scary about this film is the way the dybbuk possesses people around Casey, starting with a small boy then moving on to a old paralysed man, her best to finally her boyfriend. It gets stronger, feeding on the fear and killing anybody that tries to help Casey.

There were moments in the film where it almost bordered on the tedious and I felt like was trying to hard to scare the viewer, but overall the film set out to strike fear as you viewed, and if you’re a fan of paranormal stuff, this film really hits the right notes!!


Best horror film i've seen in years!

Helen Dolman

Friday, 27 February 2009


So tonight I was watching The biggest Loser (an american game-show about obese people loosing weight for money) and I found out a quite frightening fact!

You need to burn off 3,500 calories to lose 1 pound!

On a good day at the gym I can burn off about 500 calories!!

Its really depressing to know I have to burn off over 2 times the amount of calories I am consuming at the moment just to lose one measly pound.


So far my weight loss has mainly been through being extremely ill over the last few days!

Well I think using this chart on a gym day I am burning about 700/1000 calories!

Not enough really, I need to be loosing at least 2000 a day!

Anyways I felt I needed to get this out to motivate myself and make myself realise I need to be doing more. At the moment I feel pretty upset because I am not doing enough, but hopefully I will use this information to my advantage!

Thanks for reading xxx

Tuesday, 24 February 2009

Classing a person as a celebrity 24/02/09

So this is something I have pondering about lately.. what makes someone as celebrity?

I think that maybe I have the term celebrity wrong as I thought someone who is a celebrity is a talented person who has achieved high status in the media over a long period of time...

However it seems in this day and age you only need be on television or in the newspaper for a matter of minutes and your classed as a celeb and able to appear on all these I am a celeb shows!

For example.. today I was watching 'celebrity britons best dish' and Rafe was on it from the apprentice, now for me, he does not class as a celebrity.. he is a man that was on a reality TV show about people trying to be an apprentice for Sir Alan sugar!

So there we have the problem.. reality TV has made celebrities out of too many normal people! But where will stop!

Jade Goody has become world wide celebrity for having cancer, so has the 13 year old boy who just became a father!!!

I think that its ridiculous!

For me a celebrity is People like Brad Pitt, Kate Winslet, Barbara Windsor and Jamie Oliver. People that are famous for being extremely successful and not attention seeking wannabes!

If all these non celebs and celebs are getting tarred with the same brush then maybe we should think about making a new word for the wannabes.. like 'pleb'

I'm a pleb get me out of here

pleb big brother

pleb fat club

pleb come dine with me

I think it would work and this way I would be able to go "Hmmm i know not to have false hopes about this show because it has Plebs in it"

Anyways RANT over!


Tuesday, 17 February 2009


My mum made this awesome video using home videos from all the years!

Its pretty sweet and as I am living away from makes me realise what a amazing and beautiful family I have!

I love my family so much and am so greatful they love and support me whatever I do!


Sunday, 15 February 2009

15/02/09 HOW I LOOK NOW!!


What I look like now!!

this is so you can see the change in my weight loss over the forthcoming months

I am so tired from the gym today!

40 mins bike
10 mins cross trainer
10 mins rowing
12 mins tread mill walking
3 mins tread mill jogging
30 reps of all my arms/legs and tummy weighted machines!

I have been going to the gym a week today

first day I did

10 mins bike
3 mins crosstrainer
then nearly threw up lol!!!

hehe Im getting there though!

Keep tuned for more weight loss info and would love some words of encouragement below!


Thursday, 12 February 2009

12/02/09 Mac Problems, Twitter and gym.

So this week I have had to go a few weeks without my mac book pro as it seemed that there was something seriously wrong with it! After being in the computer doctors for 2 days, I was told my baby could come home and that nothing was wrong with it!

That is very annoying as I know that something is wrong with it as it has been playing up. Anyways I didn't have to pay for it so no worries there.

The last 2 weeks has seen me mostly being on twitter. Its like a social networking site, only all you do is update your status and follow people or they follow you. Its very easy to set up and buckets of fun!

Celebs such as Philip Schoefield, Fred Durst, Stephen Fry, Chris Moyles and Mr and Mrs kutcher use the site regularly! I have found it exciting to send messages to some of these celebs and even get replies of 'hello'.

If you are on it you can follow me @cherry_dee ( )

I started the gym on sunday and have been a few times since. It is extremely painful and tires me out so much but hopefully it will start making my body loose weight and has definitely made think twice before wanting chocolate!

Having Beef curry tonight.. Have become a tad addicted to curries over the last few weeks though my mum in law thinks that they are more like stews than curries because she cant make them to hot for me!!

Anyways looking forward to being wined and dined on Saturday :-P

V day only sucks if your single! >sorry<

Sunday, 1 February 2009

ITS SNOWING 01/02/09

And I have a great big fat stinking cold so therefore cannot go out and play in the snow!

Its typical!

I hate lemsip too, its like warm cat wee with lemon juice!


I hate being ill!


Friday, 30 January 2009

No Where is safe!

So this week in Lichfield a local man called Mike Eccles was brutally attacked by a group of youths as he walked back from the shops late one evening.

The Youths bottled him and stamped on his head like a trampoline, leaving him with severe head injuries, the next day Doctors turned off his life support because there was fatal swelling on his brain.

It is scary to think that we live in a Country that allows this kind of thing to happen so regularly.

The two main offenders a 15 year old and 20 year old were allegedly coked up and drunk and tried to get Mr Eccles's wine off him that he had bought from the shops.

As they were under the influence of alcohol and drugs their lawyers will state that they were not in the right mind, meaning the will probably get a shorter sentence.
The 15 year old could get as little as 18 months for man slaughter!

I think that this is revolting! I hope that they get long sentences...even life for what they have done!!! These guys need to be a example of what will happen to people who assault and murder innocent human beings.

Gangs need to be treated like terrorists, they need to be separated, disciplined and punished in extreme ways.

We are no way living in somewhere as bad a Johannesburg or Philadelphia but we do live in a country that has poor and inappropriate justice system.

I believe that prisons are becoming to much like center parks and we are caring too much about the human rights of people who discard and completely disrespect other peoples human rights, freedom and lives.

I send my deepest condolences to the family of Mike Eccles. I used to serve him in a local pub and although I never really new him personally, I still feel deeply sad that him and his family have had to go through this pain and tragedy.

If that had happened to either of my parents I would be so devastated I wouldn't know how to live though it so I have no idea how much pain they must feel.

Please be careful if you are out on the streets.. where ever you are! xxxx

Wednesday, 21 January 2009

99 subscribers but my mum aint one!!

So my youtube channel got its 99th member today! So I wrote a rap to Jay Z's song '99 problems' and rapped to a instrumental of the song.


Monday, 19 January 2009

Diet update...

Just a quick up take to tell people I have lost half a stone since thursday! It shows exercise is a main key to loosing weight because as soon as i started exercising I lost weight!

Friday, 16 January 2009

it sucks 16/01/09


Sucks big balls! A whole week and half dieting and I've lost nothing.. even though my tummy looks flatter and I feel better!

I hate that we live in such a world where how much you weigh even matters. In a perfect world people could be whatever size they like (within a healthy reason) and not feel the pressures of society. I feel like I have battled with my weight since I was a young teenager. When I was at school I thought I was FAT, like really fat!! Fact is I was probably one size bigger than the norm. Looking back at pictures from then I feel angry with myself... I should of embraced my body instead of thinking that I needed to be skinny.

Now I know I am big, bigger than I should be anyway and its so hard to deal with sometimes. I try and look in the mirror and see the good things about me and I am happy with my looks and stuff. I just wish I could loose about 40/50 pounds.

It's not going to be easy... Its been hard for the last 2 weeks. God all I think about is chocolate and cakes and coca cola and kebabs and pizzas! Mmmmmmmmmm

Oh well!

I know I am healthy though, I have to lug my suitcase and laptop backpack around a lot because I travel all the time and I'm always running to catch my train so have to be quite fit to make it. Although sometimes I nearly throw up because my lungs are killing me! lol!! but that's only because of the amount of weight of luggage I'm carrying with me

Sometimes we have to do things we dont like/want to do to fit into society, this is just one of them times.

Rant over anyways!


Friday, 9 January 2009

the week in review 09/01/09

Sooo this week has been quite a busy week for me so I haven't had time to update my blog.


So I started my diet on Monday, doing quite well so far, My vices are chocolate and coke and so far have eaten neither. I am eating small portions and trying to be more active, going well so far but hopefully I will start loosing a few pounds/stones! I want a bikini body for my birthday in July.

Job interview....

On Monday I called up a graduate scheme and did one of those phone interview, I passed it and was asked to go to a assessment day thing in Chiswick, London. The man on the phone reassured me that I sound perfect and that he could see my very easily going through. So Tuesday I trekked to Guildford to stay with my boyfriend and family and on Wednesday Sheri (my boyfriends mum) took me shopping with and got a personal shopper to get my in a nice suit so I could look professional and important.

On Thursday I went to Chiswick, Stood up in front of 40 people and talked about myself for a minute then worked with people in group activities. I did my absolute best but didn't get though to the second part of the day. I was really gutted as I thought that I did really well and deserved to go through, but obviously not!

Anyways this means I am still unemployed and broke so things can only go up. I'm going to stay in Guildford for a bit and annoy Ash I think!! hehe!


In my last blog I wrote about the economic crisis and said "why dont the banks print more money?"

Well on the train to Waterloo at 8am Thursday I happened to look at the newspaper the lady is reading next to me. Its title said something on the lines of 'PRINT MORE MONEY'


So for or the people who said I was talking silliness! I stick my tongue out to you and say "nehhhhhh".

Anyways thats HOW for NOW!

Stay tuned for more blogs! xhx

Sunday, 4 January 2009

04/01/09 . Water and Money


Apparently we should drink 2.5 litres of water a day! I don't think I even drink 0.5 of water a day. The water out our taps tastes like licking a dirty wet stone and you have to run it for about 5 minutes before you get a glass of water that hasn't got a white mist!! So I drink either coke cola or not much else! pretty bad really! Today I haven't drunk any water.... Hmmmm... maybe I should!


Anyways... so I've been thinking about this economic crisis thingy that's happening at the moment. It's pretty mad that in a few months things have declined so much At first I didn't think that it was going to effect me that much. Until my place of employment went into administration, which when I first found out I thought it was funny because I had handed my notice a week before. But when I received my last pay check the b**tards had not paid me for the week before they went into admin. Which totally sucks because I am now over £100 down and unemployed.

However it is the only thing that has made this whole crisis effect me. I think that its all a circus created my the media and government to scare us. Its been a while since we heard about any terrorist attacking or sorts. It seems we were just a small fat wealthy country with many worries. The government thought 'shit.. we need them to need us, we need them to be in fear' so invented this economic crisis to put us back in the 'fear'.

I have to admit, I know nothing about finance/money and how it all makes the world turn and stuff but I cant see how we got into this mess. It's stress about figures, numbers of money that doesn't actually exsist in actual form and that's mad really. I have actually really confused myself at the moment... if the banks print money.. why cant they just print more money to get us out of it... or is that a stupid comment?

I don't know.. It's all too confusing for me. I just hope I can get a job in the next month and earn enough money to live and do all the things I want to and need to do.


My boyfriend says I say 'Right' too much, its well annoying because I don't even know why I say it... it just tends to start my sentences off.

"right I'm off to bed"

"right I'm just going to get a drink"

"right you need to go left here"



Ricky Gervias is my favorite comedian so I am looking forward to watching 'ghost town' which I am going to do after I have written this blog. The Ricky, Steve Merchant and Karl Pilkington podcast are the funniest thing I have ever heard! I have to thank my mate Rick for introducing me to them. At Uni his bedroom was next to my boyfriends and as I would walk past his door to go to the toilet in the middle of the night I would here male voices talking... I would think 'who is in there cackling'. The one day in the summertime we were sunbathing and he started playing them as we tried to get a tan. Genius comedy!!! Any Thanks Baileybuildbase x

Anyways.. Thanks for reading

:-P x H x

First Blog 04/01/09

Hi, let me start by introducing myself!

My name is Helen Laura Dolman, I am 25 post graduate living in the midlands, UK.

I am opinionated, passionate, argumentative, inquisitive, addictive and friendly.

I look at the world through the eyes of a pessamist and tend to always think of the negatives first.

I worry too much, I care too much and I tend to look in the mirror way too much but I am also deep, like a bottomless pit, I know that really I am insignicant in scale with the whole world but it would be great to make a little mark before I turn to dust!

anyways... read on and through the year you will get to know me better x x x